Mother is not the only source of maternal love. Moreover, she may not be able to fulfill this role at all or may not want to do so. It’s normal.
And you can receive motherly love – through your mom, as much as she can give, and you can receive motherly love through nature and higher powers – in an unlimited amount. And this motherly love is always with you, it is given to you by nature simply by the right of birth. You don’t have to adopt your mom’s worldview to deserve motherly love. You are not obligated to love your mom. Free her from these responsibilities – to be your guide of motherly love, to be the main source of love. She was not born for that.
Look: nature brought you here. It created your mother’s and father’s bodies, it created the process of conception through which you came. It created the milk in your mother’s breast. It constantly nourishes you with maternal love. Yes, your mother can also be its conduit, and she can provide as much as she can, or she may not. Release your mother from your expectations. She came here to live her life as best she can. Shift your attention to the maternal forces of nature. They are infinite, abundant, and unconditional. Yes, your mother can be a part of them as much as she can. But look wider. All this boundless maternal love of nature is yours. By default. Simply because you were born into it. Feel it. What does it change in you?