I have always been very afraid of dancing.
At the age of 12, I attended a group dance class and the coach told me, “you are not cut out for this, go home.” It hurt, there was no support from adults, and I decided never to dance again.
Then there were dances in nightclubs, with and without alcohol, timid attempts at home in front of the mirror, but that kind teacher always haunted me))
Closer to 44, I was already organizing events with a lot of movement and authentic dances, and little by little I started moving in front of people and getting immense pleasure from it.
Then there was the Dominican Republic, where everyone just dances, moves, without any rules or judgments. I immediately went for salsa, bachata, and zumba, and realized that my limbs and my whole body don’t listen to my mind at all, the dance movements were very difficult for me) It was hard to admit, and I felt like a disabled person, as if I was rebuilding the neural connections between my body and my head.
But I often cried when I looked at myself in the mirror while dancing, realizing that YES, I AM DANCING AND I LOVE MYSELF IN IT, especially when everyone around is happy and enjoying themselves, and not thinking about evaluating me in any way.
In other words, you can just enjoy yourself.
You can move however you want.
With music and without.
With clear movements and – without.
Everything is possible.
Now I just dance in the mornings and evenings when I want to some strange or cheerful music, I love and study salsa, a little bachata, recently started kizomba.
Partner dancing is the next level after knowing your own dance – the level of knowing yourself as a couple.
Everything is possible.